I ditched my camera for a few weeks. I was (and am) so emotionally exhausted with taking images and wanting approval and validation for the results. I love photography and it’s been genuinely heartbreaking to me that I can’t make some level of living from doing it. I’ve accepted that now. Virtually no one I know bought a print or supported me. That’s fine. It made me question myself every single day, question my ability and my love of learning the art of photography. Why was I doing it if no one else liked or appreciated it?
On the most beautiful snowy day here I took my camera out without thinking and wandered on the beach and in the woods taking only a few images and only what I liked, and not what I thought would look good for other people or what might sell. The result was achieving some of my best images. I don’t care if anyone else thinks they’re good. That’s putting it mildly – the first edit of this post contained a lot of cursing.
And that’s a lesson for me. Not doing a thing for approval or a desired result – just for the art and self-fulfilment – is my way forward with this thing that I love, and with all things.
Photography is an art, after all – art shouldn’t be done with the goal of being acceptable or desirable to others. Art is an expression of life, environment and surroundings, experience, values etc. I don’t need to make that saleable or acceptable to others.